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2021

 Happy New Year!!!

In my childhood we used to believe that if we did something on New Year's day then we would end up doing it the whole year, so we'd joke that if we laughed on new year's day we'd laugh the whole day, if we cried on new year's day then we'd cry the whole year and so on. Even though those were illogical and irrational beliefs, it always made me want to make sure that January 1st was always a good day, I would wake up take head bath and wear new clothes and dress up nicely and try to smile the whole day and it almost become a habit and it inspired me to try and do the same every day. I used to even tell myself this new year on Jan 1st I should study, then I will study everyday, but somehow I always failed miserably in trying to study on Jan 1st. Looking back I know that it was rather a lofty goal to set, I  mean who in their right mind would feel like studying on Jan 1st when everyone around you is busy celebrating? And so I always ended up doing everything else but studying as New year meant big smiles, new clothes and cake. 

Now as an adult, New year holds a very different meaning than it did then, New Year now is a chance to start afresh once again, try once again to do those those things I wanted to do and couldn't or left half done. Taking inspiration from my younger self I decided to write on the first of Jan itself in the hope that I might get motivated to do it everyday if I do it today so here I am listening to 'Space song' by Beach House from an album called Depression Cherry. The music is so soothing and makes me feel so calm at the moment despite the several anxieties gripping my heart as I look forward to another new year.  

When 2020 was starting I was caught in a flux of emotions and was trying my best to untangle myself from it and step forward, I cannot say to what extent I have succeeded but I know that today I am in a slightly better place despite all that has been dished out to me in the past year, a little more resilient, a little more hopeful and a little more determined. Having said that I also have learned the fact that each year is going to bring it's own challenges, some greater challenges and some lesser than the previous year. Therefore being hopeful at the beginning of the year about being able to face them and overcome them gives me a little more strength.  

I am truly excited about this year, I have so many things I want to do this year, so many things I want to accomplish, especially in terms of writing, I have set so many goals to improve my writing this year, both with regard to how much I write and how well I write. So I'm excited about how it is all going to turn out. I only hope that I continue to have this enthusiasm through the year despite the things go on in my life. 

Here's hoping for a happier and more accomplished 2021.  

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