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Writing is something I love, yet I have not been able to do it for so long, I have been trying and failing to keep up a writing routine, at one point I got into this great habit of writing something or the other everyday, but somewhere down the line I go lost and went back to the point where I could no longer do it with the same ease that I did before.  Today I revisited the posts I wrote on my blog earlier to see what I had written about and how did I do it so effortlessly. Turns out it wasn't so effortless after all, even then I was struggling, but somehow I tried to push my self. I also understood, reading my blog is also a way to keep track of my mental health. Due to the amount of issues that have heaped up in the recent past I feel like I am in a very terrible place right now and I was doing OK back then, but I wasn't truly doing OK even then, but I was able to find the head space to do things I like, like writing because I had some time and space for myself away from the...

 For the past few days I have been attempting to write and have left it blank, I open my blog think of what to write about and open my phone and start scrolling some social media pages. It has become a pattern, a toxic one at that.  I finally found something that pushed me to write, so I found this quote  that said "write everyday, just to keep in the habit, and remember that whatever you have written is neither as good or as bad as you think it is. Just keep going, and tell yourself that you will fix it later" - Jane Smiley. This was on a page called writing about writing.  Actually it has been very difficult to open Facebook for the past few days, it has been extremely disturbing and still I found myself not being able to break out of it. few months back I wasn't opening it at all, for a few months I had even deleted it from my phone, I am beginning to wonder if I should do that again, because it is only filling me p with negativity. I have almost reached a point w...

 There is a new short film by Neelam Productions called 'The Discreet Charm of Savarnas', it has been all the rage in the past few days, so many people have been putting it up on their status and sharing it on social media and so on.  To talk about these things is a slippery slope because people tend to see things in a very black and white manner, for most of my acquaintances and friends the argument is that it is made by one of our people about a phenomenon that is so common among Savarnas and one of our issues is being represented on screen so we must encourage it. While there is no disagreement there, the question remains, should we encourage or praise bad film-making and a mediocre delivering of a subject simply because it is one of our own who has made it? Must we not be critical about the way the subject is dealt with and how it is put across so that there is scope for improvement and better performance in the future, or should we remain in our echo chambers and praise t...

 The key to good writing is to not lose touch with writing perhaps, I have let a lot of time slide by in between and not written properly for a while now. It feels overwhelming to start writing again, but the more I put it off, the more difficult it gets to start writing once again. But one way or another I want to get back to writing how I was few months ago, I enjoyed that time so much, felt such a great sense of accomplishment. If there was one thing tat really turned things around for me this year it was my writing. It gave me a sense of self worth especially when I felt so low and dejected. it gave me hope that I can make something of myself with my writing. And now that I have stopped I beginning to feel hollow inside once again and it's not a great feeling. So I am going to try once more to get back to doing something I really love and enjoy, even if it gets difficult, I am going to try. Of course there's the question of what I am going to write about, I already have a f...

 I am writing after a month, I seem to have lost touch with my writing, feel pretty clueless sometimes and wonder what I am doing with my time. It was fine for as long as I had talks and webinars going on, but suddenly I feel lost once again. So as a part of trying to do something useful with my time I read a book and reading a book means writing a review or my thoughts rather on the book I read, so here goes. I read 'Purple Hibiscus' Chimamanda Ngozi Adichie. Even though I finished reading it yesterday, I wasn't really in the frame of mind to write yesterday so I put it off and in retrospect it may have been a good thing because throughout today I kept having the feeling that I was somewhere else yesterday and I had to keep reminding myself that I didn't go anywhere, I was reading the book. I think it was well written book, with simple language and the narrative held my attention so much that I didn't want to do anything else, I just wanted to keep reading it. Ther...

    This post was due two days ago, due to lack of time I couldn't finish writing it. 'The Prisons we broke' is the book i recently read, as recent as yesterday. It was part of my reading list for a long time and I am glad I was able to get to it finally. It has been really hard to my hands on any books because of the lockdown, so I feel all the more happy about being able to finally get the book and complete reading it as well.  It is an autobiography of Baby Kamble, initially written in Marathi, which was later translated by Maya Pandit. I won't go too much into the details of the book but I believe it is one that everyone must read if one were to get an insight into how horrid things were for the Dalits. I'm not saying they aren't bad now, they are, but in a much different manner than compared to what it was like back then. I think if there is any thing really horrible in this world it is the religion called Hinduism, I don't think there is anything worse...

     "You don't know what it is to be a mother" shouted my friend on the other end of the phone, trying to shut me down in an argument we were having. I retorted immediately saying I know how much time kids take so I had said goodbye to my friend ever since she became a mother.      But that sentence has lingered in my mind ever since even though it was a couple of months back and I have gone back and forth with my ideas with regard to the subject. It is true I am not a mother, I have no children nor am I too keen on having any at least in the near future. But must someone be shamed for not being a mother or not wanting to be a mother. There is so much glorification about motherhood in popular culture, endless songs, poems, movies and tv series all emphasizing the inexplicable bliss of motherhood. Needless to say a lot of our attitudes are also shaped by the popular culture of our times, and women are always told about how your life is never complete until ...