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 " If I have to die today, what would my Legacy be?" I was watching the series 'The Good Place, and in one of the episodes, one of them talk about not wanting to go away without any legacy and think of what they have done in their lifetime. I began to think " If I have to die today, what would my Legacy be?" The first thing that came to my mind was, the book of Annihilation of Caste by Dr. B. R. Ambedkar, that we got a reprint of, it's one of the things I am very proud of as President of ASA, and as an individual. Every time I look at it I feel very happy that I made something like that possible, it gives me hope that if I put my mind to it I can accomplish things, great things, despite obstacles, it reminds me I am on the right path and I must keep going forward despite the setbacks. Because like Rosa says in Brooklyn 99 "two steps forward and one step back is still one step forward". Maybe that's why this book gives me so much hope. A...

I missed my mark of writing yesterday, so technically this is supposed to be yesterday's post, I'm trying to keep the streak alive by making up for it by writing two posts today. I got caught up with too many things at home yesterday, well it's nothing significant, but i felt good by the end of it. One of my tasks for the day in my Bullet journal was to organise some things in the Kitchen. The idea was to just arrange the glassware and the new mixer jars, but once I got into it, I began organising the kitchen, I lost track of time and I just kept going, almost switched off from everything around, I was playing music on my phone but honestly I don't even remember what songs were playing after a point. SO the way things were kept, it was occupying so much space and felt like the kitchen was too crammed, I'm not a big fan of small kitchens, for me the two most important thing in a house is that the kitchen should be spacious and the bathroom must be clean and neat. ...

One of my tasks today was to make a Bombay Sandwich! I have this thing where I am making easy dinners so that my sister can go t bed early, plus i like making dishes that are not the regular rice and curry. to do it once in a while is nice but to do it every day is kind of mundane I dont know why I feel like that. Making something different on the other hand makes me happy, I like to cook different dishes. I made carrot cake yesterday and it was so delightful. Even more because it came out so well. I think that's the thing, it feels so good when what i cook turns out delicious, I feel such a sense of accomplishment, not all the dishes though. I love baking, I actually find it very interesting, I want to make bake so many things, and now I have a good oven to bake whatever I want. So that is one more thing I want to do this year apart from writing, well, not bake everyday exactly, but maybe I could bake something every week, and if I have the time and patience twice a week. am...

Ten years ago, I saw my self as 'a bit of a feminist', but looking back now I wonder if I really was a feminist, but then again, I probably was a bit of a feminist, not quite a feminist that i See myself as today as or as much of a Feminist I would want to be... Today I see myself as a strong Dalit Woman, A Leader, An Ambedkarite, A Feminist. But what does it really mean to be all these things? For a long time I was not very comfortable about my identity as a Dalit, I was afraid to let people know that because I felt that if any of the people around me knew it then they would think that I just got a free pass at things because I am an SC and I can avail of reservation a so called 'privilege' which my other friends couldn't have. What truly inspired me and led to not just accept but also embrace my Dalit identity was being a member of Ambedkar Students Association. It was not something that happened overnight, it has been a gradual process, nevertheless, I am h...

Why do people stay in relationships that are toxic? When the issue of separation/divorce comes into play how much freedom do women have to take the necessary step, and how much freedom do they allow themselves in taking a step towards separation. Our society has convinced of some very troubling morals, that it is up to the woman to hold the marriage together, she must compromise and adjust to things should something go wrong, if the husband is not good, she must adjust for the sake of her children. But what of her life, and her happiness, it doesnt seem to be an issue of importance at all, even if this question comes into play, the the cliché question comes up, 'How can you be happy without your husband?' Happiness is only when you're together and so on... I have often learned from the experiences of those close to me that parents are not very supportive of the girl splitting up with her husband. No matter how bad things are, they just want the woman to apologize and ad...

Today I had an interesting conversation with my friend, we talked about a lot of ongoing political issues and for most of them we had similar perspectives, and it would have been a pleasant conversation over all if he didnt mention to me about something that had happened earlier on. It was about how a leader shouldn't be sensitive and emotional, and for as long as they are in the helm, things will not progress. This caused much turbulence in our conversation and friendship as well. Nobody talks about these things when it is a man who is the leader of an organisation. They pretty much don't care about how present/absent he has been, his administrative skills, his ability to stand u for his people and so on, but when it is a woman in that place, its like the yard stick almost automatically changes, you are judged by an entirely different standard. Nobody cares if a man is sensitive or not, but the minute a woman tries to make a point, either she is seen as an authoritarian fig...

Yesterday, I watched the movie Bombshell, it stirred up a lot of emotions for me while watching that movie, I couldn't hold  my tears back, while watching it, especially this particular scene, wherein there are women who were harassed by Roger years ago, and each of their experiences are played out one by one, it was very distressing to hear it, this was the scene that shook me. There very many others, but this particularly had some impact on me. It has never been easy for women to come into the workforce, women have always been a lopsided world, the way things work for men are different and different for women, you are put at a disadvantage right from the start even before you can begin, because you're a woman, it automatically is assumed that whatever you do, a man can do it better, it doesn't matter how good you are at the job. The first thing you're seen as is a sexual object more than a good worker, what ever the role may be, if someone helps you out in somethin...

As a young adult I have always wanted to be a writer, and i wrote a lot of stuff, which i wouldnt exactly call great, so i felt embarrassed about it and then i stopped and then i started to write again but, no longer with the same ease that i did earlier on, now I keep struggling to write, I keep getting stuck at every point, I don't know what to write about so I thought of taking it up as a challenge this year, to write at least 250 words every day, about anything, without worrying about how good or bad it is, and see how that might help me in honing my writing skills. I hope I am able to follow through on this and not leave it like I did before. Earlier I thought I could postpone one day's writing to another but that only makes it worse, so the important thing is to not keep any backlogs I suppose. Let's see where this takes me.