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It feels great to write down the tasks you have to do and actually completing them, no matter how mundane they are. I think the important thing is to write down achievable tasks and not over plan. So I was able to actually check off everything on my to do list and it feels amazing, I hope I continue to be able to do that, it gives such a sense of accomplishment.  In my earlier post I spoke about how the previous was and how my mental health got affected because of all the things that happened. today I want to write about how I want this year to be and what I hope to do in 2021. It has been a pretty hard year, but I now look to this new year with the belief that things will turn around, and if they do not at least I now have the ability to probably withstand what 2021 throws at me. In order to be able to stand strong the most important thing is to be healthy.  So this year one of the most important things for me is to be healthy, both physically and mentally, because if one is ...

 Few days back, I started using my planner, I have been so excited about it. I think part of me was waiting for the new year so that I could start using it. But using the planner also means streamlining my a life a little more and being organised. I sort of gave myself time till the year end because in the back of my head it was like, once the new year starts I can do all that for now I can go easy on myself. And I am happy that I gave myself that time because I think I really needed that time.  2020 was a pretty tough year for me, I know it was a tough year for almost everyone in the world, but it was tough for me for very different reasons. 2019 ended on a tragic note, we lost a loving member in our family and it was difficult for any of us to cope with it. It particularly triggered a lot of anxieties in me which made life quite hard for me, I was constantly worried about what is going to happen and it left me exhausted before the year could even begin. When 2020 started off...

 Happy New Year!!! In my childhood we used to believe that if we did something on New Year's day then we would end up doing it the whole year, so we'd joke that if we laughed on new year's day we'd laugh the whole day, if we cried on new year's day then we'd cry the whole year and so on. Even though those were illogical and irrational beliefs, it always made me want to make sure that January 1st was always a good day, I would wake up take head bath and wear new clothes and dress up nicely and try to smile the whole day and it almost become a habit and it inspired me to try and do the same every day. I used to even tell myself this new year on Jan 1st I should study, then I will study everyday, but somehow I always failed miserably in trying to study on Jan 1st. Looking back I know that it was rather a lofty goal to set, I  mean who in their right mind would feel like studying on Jan 1st when everyone around you is busy celebrating? And so I always ended up doing...

 Yesterday I went down memory lane and wrote about one of my experiences, But for now I'm holding it off from publishing it, I don't think I want to put it out there just yet. But writing about it gave some sense of comfort, writing about my own experiences gives me a very different feeling, it makes me feel like I have gone back in time and reliving that once more. there is some kind of warmth in doing that but it is also painful at the same time, that is one reason why I stopped writing what I was working on earlier as it became too much an emotional process and it got very overwhelming. But now I want to get back to my process, so I am taking small measures to get dive right back into it.  In some way I am quite excited about what this new year is going to bring, I have so many plans for the coming year, one of the many things I want to do is have a bullet journal to keep track of my writing, my ideas, plot lines etc. My head is brimming with ideas on what I want to write a...

I finally started reading The Second Sex by Simone de Beauvoir, it is something I have been wanting to read for a very long time in my life, I finally managed to secure a copy for myself which I can sit at read at my own pace. I have just read the introduction and I must say I am quite happy with what I have read so far. I could relate to understand so much of what I have read so far. And I am quite excited to read further, although it might take some time to read and understand it considering the length of the book. Fiction I can read so quickly but I have noticed I cannot do the same for non fiction. I   suppose when it comes to fiction it has to do with finding out what happens next whereas in non fiction I am busy taking down notes or trying to learn what the book is trying to convey. It is a rather slow process I must say nevertheless an enjoyable one.  I don't know how much of a review I will be able to write on The Second Sex, but in what I have read so far, it feels li...

 It has become like a ritual to write on the 4th of every month, I started this blog on the 4th of January,  the last two times I wrote was on Oct 4th and November 4th and here we are now, December 4th. I cannot believe that it is already December 4th. I think most of us are still stuck in March and have not exactly had as sense of how so much time has passed by, despite so much happening in these past few months. It sort of feels like we're living in Miss Havisham's house from Great Expectations, a novel by Charles Dickens. I always found it so peculiar how the time stopped in her home the moment her wedding was cancelled. I always thought it was rather an interesting way to put in a concept like that. It's like she lost all sense of time after that moment, everything stopped for her in that moment when she received that letter. It also shows her inability to move on from what has happened to her and so she tried to stop time from moving on and hence made the all the clock...

Writing is something I love, yet I have not been able to do it for so long, I have been trying and failing to keep up a writing routine, at one point I got into this great habit of writing something or the other everyday, but somewhere down the line I go lost and went back to the point where I could no longer do it with the same ease that I did before.  Today I revisited the posts I wrote on my blog earlier to see what I had written about and how did I do it so effortlessly. Turns out it wasn't so effortless after all, even then I was struggling, but somehow I tried to push my self. I also understood, reading my blog is also a way to keep track of my mental health. Due to the amount of issues that have heaped up in the recent past I feel like I am in a very terrible place right now and I was doing OK back then, but I wasn't truly doing OK even then, but I was able to find the head space to do things I like, like writing because I had some time and space for myself away from the...